Ping love Joy

28^th April 2007, Where am I? I am in Brisbane Australia. Trying hard to get a job as a cleaner or waitress or fruit piker. What I am going to do is a joke but part of my life. Almost two weeks past. Did I learn something or find something new? No. I answer myself. Indeed. You might not going to believe this. I even think back Taiwan rather than stay here. The main reason is environment are quiet different from where I was in Santa Barbara U.S. I have a school program and host stay who take care of me. At least my host mama is a local American. She speaks excellent English and I must speak English to her too. Now I live with Taiwanese family who speak also excellent language too but is a Chinese. Oh…. So sad. To save money so I didn’t apply for a school. To save money I need find a job here. I felt stress form all of negative things I encounter now.

I went with my friend to deliver our Resume more than five shop today. Actually, I don’t think we will get any phone from the shop owner. After we came here, we know more about the situation here. If I were employer I won’t hire someone who only can work in my firm six months. Otherwise, I don’t have confidence in my English ability. For me is really difficult to know the entire vegetable name. I inspirit myself to stay longer even I do not work is fine. I should keep learn that’s what my purpose to come here. I want to take a Master. I know I will. This is a first time I feel I am not strong and very weakness. Or I push myself too hard? I miss the family I use to have when I was in Karen’s house. That’s a real family where I should back too. What I chase for? Chasing for what? I don’t have any idea. I do envy someone who can just go to school and concentrate on their study. I hate I can’t do this. So even I am sad but I will find some thing special. And change my mind. Be happier. No more complain just be myself and appreciated what I have now. Thank God. Amen..